Ready, Set... Pause.

So I am sitting here trying to relay to you the new profound knowledge I have obtained... but I am stuck. Realizing that no matter how many words I use and how many different ways I try to describe what I feel and have come across... you wouldn't get the point.


I don't just have new knowledge but I have a change of heart. So, ya I said I was going to blog more about Captivating but the truth is, all my future posts will have a taste of what I now know. I have a change of heart- and well, I always try to speak from the heart.

This summer I started realizing that I needed to make a change. I just didn't know how. I wanted God to take this summer and just do a number on my heart. But in Deuteronomy, He says not to test Him. I kept saying, "God, if you could heal my heart this summer, that would just be fantastic." But after hearing a message about letting God be mighty and ultimate and me being being weak and broken... I changed my attitude. I changed my testing tone to a help me tone. I started saying, "Take my heart Lord, heal it, and let it be all it is meant to be."

I wanted to disconnect from the source of the drama and the connections I had with the outside world. I wanted it to be me and God. So, I fasted from my phone from 8am-10pm everyday, which included Facebook. IT WAS FANTASTIC!!! Less headaches, less drama, more time in actual life. :P


I also fasted from dating. That wasn't too hard... no proposals. Haha. No big deal.

Where I am at now you ask? Fasting from relationships... Until the end of the summer and maybe longer if that is what God wants. I don't want to screw up where I am at with God right now. I want my heart to love God so faithfully that when my husband comes around, I can love him as God wants me to without disconnecting from God (like I used to). I want my husband to go through Daddy before He gets me. I need Christ's blessing.


I want to be ready for everything God has in store for me. The more I am in touch with Him, the more I will be in touch with myself and what He wants of me.

I want to be ready. Don't you?