Who I was

I have gone through a change recently that has made me realize that I am no longer myself. It is hard believe how far I have come and overwhelming to think of how far I have yet to go. I know that when I was little girl I was saved, but I don't feel that I was truly saved until recently. Yaaa, I talked a good talk and walked a good walk, but something within myself hadn't changed yet. There was no true fire. Sure I worked at summer camp for many years and introduced many little boys and girls to Christ and showed them what it means to be loved. The truth is, there is so much more to it than that. I have loved my Father since I could remember, I just don't think I ever truly let Him love me. 


So, this is my next step to help me not feel so overwhelmed. I am going to start blogging about the change that is happening within me or the change that has happened. I tried journaling, but my hand got sore :P And I feel that God wants me to blog. Maybe there is someone else out there that needs to hear about what I am going through and know that they aren't alone or aren't the only ones that struggle in a certain way. Maybe it was Pastor Troy's words on Sunday that reminded me that we must confess our sins to one another and pray for one another. So be praying for me, as I will be praying for you. Another reason for this blogging shenagians its that I need to document my growth, so I can look back and see how far I have come. I am hard on myself sometimes and don't always realize how much I have learned or grown. Hopefully this helps.


There are a lot of lessons that my mind has learned, but few that my heart has learned. So this is my journey. First lesson my heart has learned, I am not in this alone. I cannot change on my own. I am weak, and it only makes me realize how much I need my Savior's strength. So y'all can stop telling my I am so strong. I may only appear strong because you can see the Holy Spirit holding me up. I am indeed a work in progress. My growth at times will not be easy or pleasant, but like I said, I am not in this alone. 


I am so blessed by the wonderful people God has place in my life. I wouldn't be where I am today without His workers. I love you all.


In sum,
I was me. Now, I am trying to figure out what it means to be like my Jesus.
{{ It is no longer I that lives, but Christ that lives in me (Gal 2:20). }}